Six Months Since My Last Post Here

I have been wanting and wanting to write, and yet, I have been struggling to find the time and the energy. I just want to lay down and read, listen to audio books while playing a game on my phone, or play a game while listening to podcasts on YouTube. I substitute teach occasionally. What I want to do is fulfill my (nearly) lifelong dream to write and publish a book. I don’t even know what kind of book I want it to be anymore. For many years, I was going to be a middle school and/or teen/YA author. Now, I don’t even know anymore if that is what I want to do. I am thinking more and more about writing a memoir, perhaps a creative memoir. It is frustrating because I am on medication for anxiety. When I am on medication for anxiety, and it is working, I do not feel like I can write nearly as often. It’s good because I can function in daily life, but frustrating that I don’t feel the need to pour the words out on here or on paper.